Fine

Where I want to be right now: a courtyard in Vienna...



and it's only because the tears blur my eyes
before they wash them out and reveal the disguise
it's rather later than sooner that we see things clearer
take a look in the mirror
and you'll know what I mean

fine
I guess I'm doin' fine
I think a lot and I know too little
I think I know too little
I think I know too little

so sometimes I praise escapology
cause it's the only way to be when you learn and you see
how cruel people can be
cruel people can be
I never believed in the tale of reason

Video by Playggground, v cool.
"playgrrround is a vienna based video project.
We take artists we love off the stage, onto and around the streets, into the woods,...then we play.
They with their instruments. We with the camera. And all together with the space we find ourselves in."

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Someone asked me today "What is it that you're after? (relationship)"

This is what I am after:

I want to believe. I want to be able to truly believe things that someone says to me, and never have the doubt. As soon as I start to doubt, I will find faults in everything that has already been said to me, all the things that will be said to me. Then everything loses its meaning. Only the truth matters? Well, truth is a relative thing, relative to the ears of the one that hears it. There is no such thing as the truth, there is only perception. As soon as I start to doubt, it's both endless and it's over.

You have to choose carefully who to believe in. And sometimes not believing is a fortunate thing.

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This was really strange, Esquire HK 20th anniversary. I felt so out of place.


This was weeks ago, before the China trip. At Peel Fresco a little live jazz place in Soho.